devotion

In my personal Bible study this morning, I learned that the Hebrew word for devoted is nathan. So my mind thought, Hey what a cool name for a boy! We've already got a name picked out if the baby's a boy, and it's not Nathan, but I thought about it. Then she (Beth Moore...who else?) went on to ask to whom am I devoted? Or as another definition of nathan says, To whom is my heart fastened? I really had to think about that. I mean, on most days, I do believe it is God. But I know James, my family, my friends, and now, this baby can top the list as well. Especially when I'm worrying about whether the baby will have two heads or be 12 pounds. Job says, "...I have treasured the words of his mouth more than my daily food." (Job 23:12) Now that's devotion! I especially can recognize that level of devotion now that my appetite has increased.

The morning we found out I was pregnant, James and I prayed, and gave the baby to the Lord, come what may. It's a scary feeling to have no control, but...."I know whom I have believed, and am persuaded that He is able..." kinda taken out of context, but it's still true. To whom am I devoted? The only One worth my devotion, the only One who is faithful and controls everything.